At that time,neither what I thought nor what anyone thought was important—Maddie's health was number one.
My mother couldn’t of course resist letting out her tears,letting out all the mixed feelings she had felt.One second she was blaming it on me for not being a good sister—the next she was blaming it on herself , she wanted to concentrate on one person to blame for what happened but Maddie .
And she was crying& talking at the same time to the doctor asking him more about Maddie."Sorry,but you can visit maddie later ,she's now recovering from the surgery" the doctor said .
My mom couldn’t argue with the doctor --couldn’t even try to.There was something fierce in the doctor's eyes that made my mother become quiet for a while until he left the waiting room.
Jason in the other hand,was in shock also from the awful news.As soon as he heard the words come out of the doctor's mouth, he put the palm of his hand on his mouth.Next thing I knew he was holding me real tight from the back.He was like protecting me from something but nothing had happened to me then!.
That crises showed me the real Jason—The caring Jason.I knew that he cared about me before but I did not expect it to be this much.If I was with any other guy,he would immediately text the news to his friends and it would be the next big thing out in the city,but not Jason.
The night came really fast,it was the middle of the midnight before we'd even knew."Cady,it’s a school night, you should go home and sleep now" those were the first words that came out of Jason 's mouth after the doctor left."I don’t care" I mumbled and I was almost talking to my self ."He's right , Cady, go and have some sleep,I'll stay here 'till Maddie wakes up" my mom said after I hushed for a bit.
"but mom—","no cady , go" mom was firm about it this time.It was like its her final talk,no more arguing with her about it.
I got up from my chair and so did Jason,I gave mom one big hug and left the room and headed outside with Jason to his car.
We got in the car , Jason had opened the door for me as usual—he was being him, a gentleman.Both of us were really queit on the road way back to my mom's house.
It was not easy to talk to my boyfriend about my drug addict 14 year old sister.It had to be like a family secret.A family secret that one of the other people knew about.
But he was not "one of the other people" , He was more than that.When we arrived,I had the nerve to finally be the one to start the conversation.
"Jason"
"Yes,sweety"he answered
"can you please stay for the night with me?,please?, you can sleep in a separate room if you want , I just don’t want to stay alone for the night in the house by myself and---" I was about to continue talking until he cut me off and started petting my back and gave me a kiss on my forehead
"calm down , calm down, sure I can , I'll just text my father and let him know about it,in case he wakes up and not find me around the house"
We got out of the car and went inside the house then went upstairs to my room. I sat on my bed and rested my head on both of my hands.Jason came and sat next to me—he wrapped his arm around my back and leaned closer to me and started whispering to my ear "its gonna be alright, maddie's going to be ok,I promise".
I couldn’t help myself not to cry so I started to. I wanted to spill everything that was kept inside me,everything I felt at that moment,but my tounge wouldn’t let me,or the words shall I say?.
There were no specific words that can describe how I felt at that time.Even though there were tears coming out of my eyes,I felt numb in the other parts of my body.
"hey , hey , I told you she's gonna be alright" Jason said quietly and started pulling me against his chest.I couldn’t resist him because his hugs were priceless, they cant be compared with nothing at all,Unique.
I kept crying for about 3 to 4 minutes I think,then I finally calmed down .
"now get some rest,I'll stay right here" Jason said when he tucked me in my bed and sat on my bed next to me.He was rubbing my head as if I was a little child,but I liked it,it made me feel relaxed and safe.
"do you wanna sleep here ? , I can go sleep in my mom's room" I whispered .
"no its ok you stay right here , and I'll go sleep in the couch downstairs" Jason said
" are you sure?" I asked
"yes im sure,I'll be fine"
"ok but let me get you a blanket and a pillow" I told him while I was trying to get up .
"no,no , you stay where you are and just tell me where can I get them and I'll manage myself well."he said .
"you can find them in that drawer" I was pointing to the third drawer under the mirror.
He grabbed a pillow and a blanket and headed for the door ,"im gonna leave the door open inn case you need anything,just shout at me and I'll come right away"
"ok" I said.
"now sleep,goodnight"
"Jason" I called him before he went dowstairs
"yes?" he answered
"thank you" I had so many reasons to thank him for , staying with us in the hospital is reason number one,and spending the night with my in the house is reason number two.
He smiled at me and said "sweet dreams"
I smiled back and closed my eyes after knowing that im for sure going to be safe tonight ,it was not like I wasn’t safe before but something made me feel a little bit more comfortable with Jason's existing in the house for the night.He was like my guardian angel .
I woke up the next morning and I totally forgot about what happened to Maddie.For some reasong , Jason's presence made me forget all about the problems I had .He had the ability to make me happy even when im not.
I went downstairs looking for him and I found the dinning table filled with all sorts of breakfast food,from eggs to cucumbers.And there was Jason setting the table.
"Good morning , sunshine" he said with a bright smile on his face.
"hey" was all that I thought of
"now , you need to get ready for school,and come eat your breakfast , you don’t wanna be late do you?"
I was about to answer "ah ----"
But he didn’t let me . "uh uh , now go get changed"
He pointed one finger at me as a joke "im gonna be your dad for this morning"
"no,please don’t be" I answered.
I hurried back up and changed my clothes and rushed downstairs,ate my breakfast with Jason of course, and we went to school like nothing had happened.
I didn’t want anyone to know about what happened to maddie.
Not until I at least know exactly what happened.
______________________________________(to be continued)
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